On Wednesday I'll turn 39. I've been dreading this birthday for months, but it's coming whether I want it to or not. Life is just like that, huh? A lot of things have happened recently that I haven't wanted to, but giving up doesn't seem like an option.
Have you ever been down and just can't see your way out? I imagine that's a strong "yes" for many people. So what do you do? Well, that's different for everyone. Me, you ask? After letting myself have whatever reaction I'm going to have (within reason, of course), I usually try to be quiet and come up with a plan. But last year and this, the only time I've been able to come up with a workable, reasonable plan was for scheduling surgery. Not exactly a top activity choice for most.
So now time is ticking, as is my biological clock, and I'm stuck, or at least I feel that way. I wish there were an answer, even if it wasn't an easy one. You see, I'm in a terrible position right now. Without spilling my guts all over the internet, I feel I'm at a crossroads. As I said in the title of this blog, time pauses for no one. Now I am faced with moving on from a dream, or just letting it take a possibly permanent backseat, neither of which sounds very appealing to me. I know I'm not alone in having to make difficult life choices, but sometimes I feel like I have more than most.
We all imagine our lives unfolding a certain way, and mine has unfolded nothing like I thought or hoped it would. I don't want to turn 39. I'm not ready to turn 39. 39 is coming whether I like it or not. Let's see how year 39 unfolds!
I'd love to hear about your 39th birthday, and if you haven't had one yet, tell me how you'd like it to unfold! Leave a comment below and let's have a dialogue!
Warmly,
Susan, aged 38 + 363.5 days
Have you ever been down and just can't see your way out? I imagine that's a strong "yes" for many people. So what do you do? Well, that's different for everyone. Me, you ask? After letting myself have whatever reaction I'm going to have (within reason, of course), I usually try to be quiet and come up with a plan. But last year and this, the only time I've been able to come up with a workable, reasonable plan was for scheduling surgery. Not exactly a top activity choice for most.
So now time is ticking, as is my biological clock, and I'm stuck, or at least I feel that way. I wish there were an answer, even if it wasn't an easy one. You see, I'm in a terrible position right now. Without spilling my guts all over the internet, I feel I'm at a crossroads. As I said in the title of this blog, time pauses for no one. Now I am faced with moving on from a dream, or just letting it take a possibly permanent backseat, neither of which sounds very appealing to me. I know I'm not alone in having to make difficult life choices, but sometimes I feel like I have more than most.
We all imagine our lives unfolding a certain way, and mine has unfolded nothing like I thought or hoped it would. I don't want to turn 39. I'm not ready to turn 39. 39 is coming whether I like it or not. Let's see how year 39 unfolds!
I'd love to hear about your 39th birthday, and if you haven't had one yet, tell me how you'd like it to unfold! Leave a comment below and let's have a dialogue!
Warmly,
Susan, aged 38 + 363.5 days
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