The one constant in the universe is change

And if you're too stubborn or clueless to change, you're kind of screwed. Everything, and I mean everything changes. Friendships, jobs, ideals, photo styles (I look back at some earlier photos and cringe sometimes). How you handle the change is what matters. I have had to adapt to many, many changes in my life, some more disruptive than others. I have see many people go through huge changes and some have handled it well, others not. I've been thinking a lot about change lately as I have had to accept some things I didn't want to. We all go through periods of intense and sometimes traumatic and forced change. No one has forced me lately, and for that I am thankful. I recently decided that I must change the way I go about living. Is that heavy enough a topic for a blog? You see, I'm the kind of person, and have been since childhood, that has gone through life always planning and looking to the future. This hasn't always been a bad thing, but it doesn't seem to be the way most people live. Now I'm not trying to fit in or anything, I just feel now that I can't keep waiting for certain things that may never happen. I believe we're whole as individuals, and that our lives can be enhanced by meeting a special person who really speaks to us. Well, I've been in love twice, and both times it hasn't worked out. While I still have some hope of meeting someone, I have decided that I can no longer live my life waiting. So now I'm deciding on what cookware set to purchase. This may seem like a small thing, but to me, it's huge. First it was the queen-sized bed, then it was a love seat (I didn't dare go crazy and buy a full-sized couch - the horror!) But I waited and waited and waited some more to buy a full matching set of pots and pans. Now I'm 39, and definitely not close to finding someone to buy them with, or select for a registry. In other words, it's time to move on, folks. I must embrace this change or it will eat me alive. This I know. And while I secretly long to find the right man who is healthy and relatively normal, I realize and accept it just may never happen. So why the hell should that stop me from enjoying cooking with more option? It shouldn't. My friend, Amazon, and I, have narrowed it down to two brands, and while this excites me, it's admittedly bittersweet. But you know what? I'm damn proud of myself! I've gone through a lot in the last few years and really feel I've grown. I'm proud of myself for taking this next step, and I am changing as I must. I hope you can find the courage to change when necessary, as painful as it may be. It's always worth it!

Warmly,
Susan

P.S. I'm going to my oldest friend's wedding this weekend and can't wait to snap some photos, so be sure to check back shortly!